anyone who knows me knows I am an animal lover.. all animals, great and small..

this is lil miss.. 6 lbs of pure love. 10 weeks old. we thought about naming her Sheila, but were still deciding on a name. she's a standard schnauzer like Lebowski. I got her last Thursday the 3rd. she was the only girl of a litter of 3. 

this girl? pure play. happy to see you, always to be with you. high, high energy. little bitty tongue in your ear, your nose, anywhere she can reach..

it was an instant bond with her and Lebowski.. two peas in a pod.. inseparable.. if he'd go outside, she wanted to be with him. when he came inside, he'd run right over to be with her. at night, when she slept, she was draped across Ronnie's neck, or lying on my chest.. always as close as possible.. 

sometimes there is not enough time.. just not enough time.. 
and it's not our right to choose.. it's not up to us.. 

Sunday night (a week ago today), she got sick.. she started vomiting and a little lethargic.
I took her to the vet first thing Monday morning.. as soon as they opened. 
trying to find out what was wrong.. hoping it wasn't bad.. expect the worst, but REALLY hope for the best.
then the vet sent the word no dog owner wants to hear..
p.a.r.v.o.
yep.. that's the word..

I came home bleached the carpet.. yes, exactly, bleach.. 
it's the only thing that works..
and our WHOLE house is carpet..
I went back in the afternoon with Nona and Lebowski to be sure they weren't sick.

you see, we all had spent. every possible moment with Sheila.. 
we all stuck together like glue..
she was a very involved part of this house.
if she was sick, we'd all been exposed, most of all Lebowski  

he wasn't the same, he didn't want to eat. he just lay around.
we were very worried that he was sick too. 
and wouldn't manage parvo treatment for 2 (1 is difficult enough)
thankfully both Nona and Dude were still protected by their vaccines. 
it took Dude a couple days to be normal again. 

every day her doctor sent updates on lil miss. some pictures too.
she was eating, they had her on iv for hydration and nutrients.
sometimes she vomited up her breakfast or dinner, but she was still able to keep quite a bit of it down.
Wednesday she got a blood transfusion because her white count had started to drop, and her blood pressure was off. 
she was still a happy little puppy wanting to play and love and wiggle and lick.

Thursday the 10th was the day everything changed. 
she had her treatment and was happy-go-lucky..
then she screamed and was gone..
our lil miss was gone

Monday was hard - her first night not here - but we always had the goal of her not coming home.. just to get her back and make everything right again. 

but Thursday was terrible - reality set in pretty fast - she's not coming home.. ever..
our little flower is not coming home..

we had done everything we could. she had her first set of shots only, not her second or third. 
so she never set foot outside.. she was strictly inside only.
she was going to get her second set of shots this week, and she got sick before that could happen.
we had 4 days together. 4 days of puppy breath.. puppy kisses.. puppy snuggles..

she gave us her forever without a limited number of days.. 

lil miss is a HUGE part of our lives even though she can no longer be with us.

when your child is sick, you spend lots of time with them.. to make every moment last. 
we thought we had more time. who knew a week was all we'd get.. not even a week. 4 days.. 
then Dr Cosko and her staff had her. she spread her love as much as she could. 
our little flower touched so many hearts on her short time on earth. 
she was pure love with everyone who met her.